Robotic life

Its been a long time since I last blogged( yes, I say this almost every time). My lifestyle? Havent changed a bit. I'm starting to feel that life these days...are kinda robotic. No more unexpected events or exciting stuff to be done. Its always been the same nowadays.

Wake up
Uni
Eat sleep etc etc...
or Work(sundays)
Done for the day

Only two differences in every week. A futsal event on friday or a rare movie occasion once in a while. During my Ausmat days, things are totally random. People calling me up at odd times to go for outings....CC, chilling, movie, bitching, sleepovers. I really miss those days.

And I'm kinda craving for clubbing nowadays, wonder whats wrong with me. Kinda seem to love the extremely repulsive(to a certain extend) music beating,druming, screeching in your ears.

I jsut wish it was just a bit more eventful. Everyone's been pretty busy lately. Assignments, exams, financial and personal reasons. Its just....boring.

Hope things will change for the better soon. Am starting to feel loneliness.

Another question, should I opt to transfer to Monash Caulfield, Australia for the second sem? Still thinking if it's worth it. Any advices?

If i choose to just go there for 1 sem, its kinda waste of time, since its so short but I pay local fees and I dont haveto retake subjects that I failed but if I opt for the full transfer, I have to retake 2 extra subjects. Argh....this is...confusing

If you're not the one

If you're not the one

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms